meditating on soda tax

as a former soda addict, downing 8 bottles of classic coke a day, i appreciate the controversy around a soda tax. what was i thinking? if i was thinking it wasn't with a clear mind. why did i keep doing that day after day, month after month, year after year? reflecting on it now i can see that i was desperately looking for something soothing and exhilarating at the same time. somehow a bottle of classic coke could give me a brief fleeting while of feeling as close to that as i could imagine. i didn't know any other way to get that. until i found meditation, that is. i no longer have gripping cravings for coke but once in a blue moon, i would give myself a treat: simmer classic coke with fresh ginger and put in a generous splash of lime/lemon before sipping. the point is, the tendency takes time to go completely and i shouldn't beat myself up for that.