today i did something before i meditated. hubby, just returned after away for most of the week, and i held each other. it's one of my top fave things to do, holding him in the pre-dawn hours, reveling in his warmth and love amidst strobelight streaks of lightning, rolling thunder and night rain. at the same time i saw a little concern in the horizon of the mind, i don't want to miss meditation. i took a couple of rounds of deep breaths when hubby said, on the plane back i got the idea how to do it. i knew immediately what he was talking about. a huge grant he's resolved to work at. i felt an inner turnaround, an upsurge of attention directing towards him. then for a little while i had no thought but to listen to him. periodically i felt moved to respond. there was an easeful rhythm in the gentle momentum before it gently slowed and faded, all in a natural manner. silence ensued for a couple of moments. i knew, and i knew he knew, it's time to get up and move on.
i was a little concerned that today's meditation might be more difficult what if the 'disruption.' on the contrary, there was a special resonance in aummming coming from deep within the belly. as a matter of fact, i found myself immersed in a deep silence when i discovered that i was only part way through the 36 rounds. for a tiny fraction of an instant, i watched the tendency to beat myself up whiff through and then i picked up aumming where i left off, sailed through it, and glided into a smooth and open sea. all in all, it didn't feel like an hour but just a short, sweet while.
indeed, with the intention to meditate, every thing i do become meditation.
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