9/3/09, 42 + 29, group aummming

be strong, be strong, be strengthened. we say these words when we come to the end of each of the five books of moses. i feel the same way about singing aum as a group. the choral sound of aaa, uuu, mmma and the nasal resonance that expands into the nooks and crannies of the head ebb and flow like ocean waves. it drowns out the rocks and boulders of tendencies and habits that hold me back. it becomes so easy to release into the symphonic resonance because it feels so utterly safe and natural to do so. and then all that's left is a sense of vast spaciousness and openness in my own being. the humming in the flowing breath fill up every particle and molecule with a buzzing aliveness all the way to the fingertips and crown of head. there's a subtle sweetness moisturizing the back of tongue and throat. it's evident that even the sweetness found in the best chocolate and tree-ripened mango do not come close. no wonder the long-held craving is gone.

i'm so, so, so grateful that shivaa has embraced me in her group aummming because i have no doubt that it has strengthened my connection to the sound of aum, it has deepened my conviction in the power of aum and therefore solidified my bond to meditation. now, sitting on my own i can call up with confidence and conviction the sound within myself knowing that i can enter the experience without difficulty. with this understanding there is no other way but to look at whatever that has to be taken care of with a fresh eye and bright joy all well tossed with a dressing of 'let's go at it and see what happens.'

for full disclosure, i have to confess shivaa's yummy-yumyum cooking is a big factor in me going back again and again too..hmmm that refreshing, exotic lemongrass fragrance gurgling off the butternut squash soup makes it that much easier to enter the inner world:)