Saturday, October 10, 2009

44 + 35, beginning a new year of torah study

right before i transition out of the sleeping state i see 2 vivid images: a small mouse coming out from under my bed, and a woman with an elaborate hairdo and hairpieces made of delicate, exquisite flowers the likes of rare orchids. then, moving right along into meditation. it's so real to me that i have only sit for a very short while when my right leg begins to go numb. i gently shift it and massage it and discover i've already roamed in the inner world for almost an hour. all this time i'm keenly aware of the body and the gentle accordion-like movement of the chest. and a sense that there are persistent efforts of cleaning out going on. i emerge from all this, anticipating with great joy the beginning session of a new year round of torah study.

7.28am. okay, so i didn't look closely enough. today we will study the closing chapters of deuteronomy. the finale, the beginning, all part of the unbroken continuum of linear time anyway. well, well, well, now my burning question is answered. what is that? i've been struggling with whether to go to the intensive on 10/24 because i thought that would be the day to study abraham's story. now it turns out to be in the week after. wow, what a relief, now i can have both. amazing, incredible, fantastic.

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