Monday, October 26, 2009

1 hr 10 m, don't need an alarm clock anymore

i used to need an alarm clock to make sure i get up by a certain time. i don't need an external device anymore. i come out of sleep and how do i know if i need more sleep or it's time to get up? i lie still, eye closed, pay attention to the sound and movement of the easy breath. if i fall asleep, i...sleep. if i see negative thought appear, i know it's time to get up to meditate. what would happen if i linger around? o, well, those little negative thought, whatever the specifics, they always quickly mushroom into monstrous scale and swallow me up. before i know it i would be caught up in it and forget who and what i truly am, the divine self, and i would be thinking, acting and speaking from a small, closed and dark place. in another word, i block grace. i've made enough mistakes to know not to go down that slippery slope.

the early negative thought is my wake up call.

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