sunglasses. breakthrough

i couldn't find my sunglasses. the first thought that came rushing in was, what a mess you are, suk wah, what did you do wrong, how could you lose...  the self-bashing didn't go on for long before an opposing force started to creep in with steady ferocity, no, suk wah, you have worked very hard at staying in the present, have faith you took care of what's necessary.

it dawned on me right then and there that the negative thought stream was a residual tendency fermented out of poverty consciousness: i have not done enough, i'm not enough, i don't have enough, nothing i do is good enough.

no, enough is enough. i've had enough of it. i don't want to live in poverty consciousness anymore. i started to bring my attention back to the natural rhythm and pacing in the breath. after a while i was back in the land of calmness and clarity. methodically i began to examine the situation at hand.

2 days later, i found the sunglasses beneath the car seat. i found the way out of the darkness of 'never enough.' i found the way into the light of abundance consciousness.