michael jackson's face and mine...

on and off over the years i often wonder what would have happened if i didn't go down this path. the other day, i was looking through a montage of michael jackson (may he rest in peace)'s evolving face. 

and i remember.

i didn't like myself back then. i thought, hmmm, if only i could change my face. so i started looking for a face that i would want to have. then, one day, i opened an old magazine, and i saw this face, the face of an indian woman. the first thought that came to me was, i want to have this face. after some searching, i was on the phone with the person who was handling the teaching tour of this meditation master. the question that popped out of me was, why do i want to look like her? the response i got? because we all want to be in her state.

that was 18 years ago. 

now i look into the mirror and i see a face i am happy with.