not volcano but a supreme sunrise

i'm in the meditation intensive, listening intently to the account of my teacher's teacher's spiritual initiation. a slideshow of sunrise accompanies it. a new slide appears. i immediately recognize it. this is my meditation experience that morning when i almost skip it. so i'm not in an active volcano. it's even better. both my teacher and grand-teacher are bestowing upon me an experience of a supremely sublime spiritual initiation. thought never doubted i have received spiritual initiation, i don't know the exact moment. i've always had the burning desire to know, when and how do i get it? aaahhhh, now i do know precisely how i have my spiritual desire refreshed and reaffirmed. in my simple mind this is equally, if not more important, than the original initiation. because everyone has spiritual longing (whether a person recognizes it for what it is and pursues it in the right direction is a different matter, i certainly didn't for a long, long time.) but i don't think many people put in the necessary time and efforts to live tuning in to it. hey, may be i am wrong. i would be so happy to be wrong.