mental hacker

sporadic mental shakes and swirls in the last few days. that's a nice way to say the mind that i thought had been stabilized and strengthened has been on and off hijacked. there have been times when i watch, during meditations, strings of words that are put together randomly across the inner screen. on sunday morning i keep losing it chanting a hymn from the vedas. i can barely keep up with a few syllables and when i manage to get back into the flow of the mantra again 2 and a half pages have gone by already.

yet all the while i watch my mood help up in an easeful and lighthearted tone. i realize the mind is kind of like this computer. i can install all kinds of softwares. in fact i can name more than a few that are outdated and some are outright non-productive. the good news is i can de-stall any i want.