have no fear. let the fears come up. bye bye.

be careful what i wish for. i might just get it. and, wo-oh. what's happening is i say to my inner self, i'm ready to let go of these old, old fear. and, in a steady stream, since a few days ago, the mind has been in this whack-a-mole mode. a fear pops up here. i catch it. turn attention to breath flow. a fear pops up there. i catch it. turn attention to breath flow. it's been just like that. only the speed of these popping-up fears has been accelerating. some times it feels like a thousand fear-moles are coming up with just a fraction of an instant between any two of them.

but, you know what? i'm strong enough to deal with this challenge. i really want to be free of the grip of fears. i have the conviction that they are coming up because i'm ready, willing and able to let them go. i don't know how much fears there are in the mental store. i'm just going to clean up shop however long it takes. hwubby says, just remember, god is with you, i love you, and you are great. yay.

okay, i see another one. go. go into the infinite space of the inner self. bye bye.

the one place i want to go is where my inner self dwells

we put everything onto our credit card, pay it off every month, get mileage points towards free air tickets.
so far we've already got quite a few. i have a joke that goes, a dental implant will fly you to new york.

i digress.

i say to hwubby, how come you are the one who is using all the free tickets? he chuckles and says, where do you want to go? i think for a moment, pouching the lower lip, and say, nowhere.

actually i do have one place i want to go. where my inner self dwells. and i don't have to get on a plane for that. wherever i am, the inner self is.