my beloved meditation teacher says, and i am paraphrasing her, whatever challenge you face, know this, it is your equal, it is not bigger than you, nor smaller, you are equal to the challenge.
i am equal to the challenge presented to me.
on the outside, i have to do a bunch of things to take care of the house and up the vigilance level, like, the way food and provisions are stored. it is a whole host of small, specific actions that have to be scheduled and performed methodically and meticulously with patience. there are certain things i may have to do more than once in order to get it right. that takes perseverance.
well, well, well, i don't even have to get to the challenge involving triggered emotions and traumatic memory to see that the steady efforts i've been putting in to sustain a meditation practice and yogic study is bearing phenomenal fruits. all those old tendencies rooted in impatience are no longer driving my thoughts, feelings and actions.
it's not that i am fear-free of mouse. it's that i am not being held captive. i am able to see and do what is necessary while i notice fear come and go.
i also notice my breath is moving a little deeper, and the inner space is a little more quiet and relaxed. the sense of openness expands in all directions a little further.
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