irs audit

whatever doubt i might still have about the benefits of meditation, i can finally lay it to rest once and for all. check this out. hubby and i went through an irs audit. by the way, we are self-employed and i am the one who's been keeping the books. what's the verdict of the auditor?

we owe zero. not exactly. we should have been billed $8.4. so i can say, we more or less get a refund.

i lose count how many times throughout the painstaking, laborious preparation i watch clouds of frustration and anxiety come and i gather some more patience to persevere by bringing attention back to the steady breathing, surrendering to whatever the outcome is....and the present task at hand, like, creating yet another spreadsheet to document every penny in an expense category chronologically.

having said all this, i must remind myself that all this wonderful and marvelous outcome is not the reason why i meditate. this is just unintended benefit. the real goal of meditation is to know my innermost and highest Self. whatever the outcome of the audit, or any other life situation, doesn't add to nor diminish my inherent Self worth.