old habits out. wonderful habits in.

here's a clear sign that i've made progress. after sitting cross-legged for a while i feel the right leg is going numb. but i want to keep meditating. so gently and carefully i rub it, adjust the supporting pillows and keep going. how does that make it progress? well, there was a time when i would just stop meditating. o, it's so uncomfortable, i can't sit like this anymore, and so on and so forth. it's evident that those old mental circuits can no longer drive my actions. some wonderful, marvelous new habits have taken root. and they are aligned with the inner self.