drinking oil. wonder oil. mantra. japa.

photo by sonia

i have to confess. even after twenty years i really didn't have much of a relationship with the mantra om namah shivaya. until i was about to drink 180 ml of medicated sesame oil at 6.30 am on jan 1, 2013. the truth of the matter is i have always felt more naturally connected to the mantra Hamsa. fortunately my guru is totally okay with that. anyway there i am staring down into the cup of golden oil.  all i know is i am at a forkroad. either i am going to throw up or.....it is at that moment that quietly and suddenly om namah shivaya arises within. strong and clear. in another fraction of a moment i see within my guru's beaming face. we are eye to eye. i feel this surge of fearlessness steadily fill me up. i know exactly what to do. quietly i say om namah shivaya. i take a gulp. another round of mantra. another gulp. and so on and so forth. until cup is empty and my being is filled with pure golden oil and pure golden mantra.

two days later my sadhana study buddy emailed me the new year message from shri guru. what else but....mantra japa. and the mantra to focus on this year is...drum roll.... om namah shivaya.

i have to say that was such an 'ego massage' moment. i was seriously congratulating myself for being so tuned in. :)

all self-praising aside, ever since then my heart has been gushing with love for om namah shivaya. fresh love. sweet love. i would find myself loudly saying it and it is in sync with whatever emotion that is going thru me. i say om namah shivaya in an angry tone. i say om namah shivaya in a questioning tone. i say om namah shivaya in a 'whatever' tone. in a frustrated tone. in a happy tone. i say it anywhere. when i am waving flame in temple. when i am doing grocery, picking out mango and carrot. when i am drinking decaf - no, ayurveda doesn't say you shouldn't eat this or drink that, what the ancient text says is if you can digest it you can eat anything in moderation once in a while. om namah shivaya to the ancient rishis and my doctorji who follows the texts to the dots and tees, which, by the way, is why i love vaidyagrama so much.  doctorji's mantra is,'we only do what the text says.'

back from detour, suk wah. what am i talking about? o yes, the mantra om namah shivaya and snehapana, drinking oil. the mind would never be able to figure out the mechanism by which going thru this major panchakarma treatment would get me to the place of enjoying mantra repetition. but, hey, i don't know exactly how electricity works either. i can still enjoy the benefits of it. to me this is what panchkarma is about, clearing the way for me to plug into the source of divine love. let that sublime electric current flow thru me. by the way, a facebook friend says, wonder oil it is. he's right. this, ta-da, is the wonder oil treatment.  It unveils the light of the mantra. om namah shivaya

photo by nat

excellent credit score. spiritual progress

there i am logging on to inbox. usually i don't pay attention to the ads that run on the right side of the window. but this time something catches my eye. the numerals 814 ornately framed. i know exactly what it is. credit score. i have no interest to find out what the ad is about. i am just thrilled that what a nice way this is to describe our credit scores. good enough to be framed. this is surely a ego-massage moment. and, guess what, we have worked hard to earn it. really. it takes a lot of work and vigilance to have and maintain a fantastic credit score. the mental circuitry has to be wired such that i pay bills on time. i have to apply discrimination to use resources wisely, smartly, prudently. i have to say no, with detachment, to all these phenomenally good deals that keep popping up everywhere, like some msg signed off by a facebook friend. for instance, a free ipad. seriously. i'm not saying i don't have spurts of impulse to click. i actually go as far as clicking it. but then i discover i have to keep giving out my personal info and keep clicking. after a couple of screens it strikes me that i don't need an ipad and this is not worth it. i'm still paying the price. i am still getting soliciting emails. but, i digress. the point is an excellent credit score is truly, in a way, a measure of spiritual progress.