the work is to stay in the present

i was presented with an opportunity to stay in the present moment. did i meet it? here's how it went down. i was getting ready to go to the dental office for a cleaning appointment when i couldn't find the house key. i was by myself in the house. hwubby was not picking up his cell so i had no idea whether he would be in the house when i would come home. by now i knew i would be late. just like that the old tendency of beating myself up was engulfing me like a flash flood. i tried to bring up the image of where and when i last saw the key. tuesday? when i went to shivaa's birthday party? i ran upstairs. it was not in the bag dedicated to spiritual study stuff. where could it be? suk wah, why didn't you put it in the proper place?! maybe hwubby took it because he couldn't find his key. no, that's not possible because his house key is ringed together with the car key. what should i do now? maybe i should cancel the appointment. what a mess you have made, suk wah. the mind was jumping all over the place like ants in a hot wok. just then something miraculous happened. i found myself taking a very deep breath in and long breath out. just like that i plunged into a moment of quiet and stillness. and just like that an image emerged bright and clear. i left for the airport the morning after shivaa's party. bingo. i unzipped the shoulder bag i took with me to the airport. and there it was. the house key. i called up the dental office. the hygienist was willing to wait for me for ten minutes. i walked fast and focused. i made the appointment a couple of minutes before the ten minute grace period. now my teeth are sparkling.

the key was where it should be. i did the right thing in that moment. the power of my accumulated spiritual force lifted me up when i needed it. thank you, my inner self. thank you, suk wah. i realize that i do have what i need in every moment. residual tendency does what it does, to try to snap me back into its grip. i just have to stay in the present. that's the work. simple.

sunrise outside. sunrise within.

witnessing yet another sweet and fabulous sunrise. sitting in a rocker. floor to ceiling windows. receiving a panoramic vista of the exquisite pre-dawn lights. where am i? at the departure gate in logan airport. ahhhh. the sun reaches everywhere. mirroring the inner self that reaches everywhere in the entire being wherever i happen to be. yet another bright and beautiful reminder that the darkness of worrying go away when i am aware of the sunshine of the inner self. the saffron disk enters into view, imbuing the fleet of red and blue southwest airplanes with a vibrant sheen. soon it spreads to the entire indoor area, touching everything and everywhere. i look around. people are doing all kinds of things. the same sunshine is all over them whether they are aware of it or not. in the same way. the inner self is shining my way all the time. all i need to do is to be aware of the inner sunshine.